Arriving

So how's your day been so far my dear? My morning began so beautifully with a surprisingly early start allowing for a strong caffeinated cup of English breakfast tea out on our newly built (yet to be finished) garden deck.

I’ve been reading my February Book of the Month, “Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet” and the words landed so clearly with me as I sat there remembering that over six months ago this was the way I spent almost every single morning - in the garden, in silence, drinking tea and sitting.

We moved into our new home and The Melaleuca Rise Studio almost 6 months ago now and I must admit it’s taken some time to feel like I have arrived. My teacher, Thich Nhat Hanh (Thây) has a beautiful saying, a gatha to be recited daily;

I have arrived. I am home.

In the here, in the now.

I am solid, I am free.

In the ultimate I dwell.

but for the past few months I have felt anything but solid and far from feeling like I have arrived, I have felt as though I am in a perpetual state of circular motion swirling in and out of new ideas, back and forth with decisions, changing paths to and fro and no amount of thinking has been able to slow down the incessant noise, buzzing around my far from neurotypical brain.

That was until I remembered, that it is only in the slowing down and landing slap bang in the middle of it, sitting here amongst the jumbled mess that is this life of mine, that I can feel my breath begin to steady once again.

And so here I am. Showing up. Laying out my picnic blanket and caring less that my snacks are shop bought, knowing that just being here for you is good enough.

Till next time, Le gach deagh dùrachd,

Leuca

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